Feeling Rich

Today I had a "AH HA!" moment. I was driving to the post office to drop off some mail. Rory and Finn were sleeping in the back and I was sipping my Starbucks (a tall, soy, half the amount of pumps, light whip cream, peppermint mocha). While I was driving a old Toyota pickup driving by caught my eye. The driver looked like he was in his early twenties and had a Christmas tree laying in the back of his truck. For some reason this brought me back to Jared and my first year of marriage. A lot happened that year my dad past away three weeks after we were married unexpectedly, our home church (which my dad was the pastor of) was going through changes, relationships were changing, Jared was laid off, we got pregnant a couple months later. Jared had to find a job to support our future family, we had to buy a reliable car that would be able to fit a car seat. We had a Toyota Tacoma that could not fit a car seat and a Honda Civic that was a clutch, had no air conditioning or heater, and didn't have a window on the drivers side. We also needed a place to live, because we were living in a 800 sq. foot one bedroom apartment. Three weeks before Rory was born Jared was hired for a surveying company, we were able to buy a reliable car, and move into a place that would be able to fit our growing family. We went through ALOT the first year of our marriage. It has been a little over three years since then and Jared and I have experienced so much more life and have fallen more in love than I thought possible.

So where does the "AH HA!" moment come in? I have noticed that I have lost little bits of pieces of myself over the last couple of years. Getting caught up with "LIFE" like buying a bigger house, a bigger car, etc. My mind has been overtaken by these thoughts and I have been lusting over them. Trying to figure out how to make these pictures work. When all of these ideas are out of my hands. I don't want these things to take away the times that I have with my husband, my children, and my friends anymore. I want to be that girl who lives in the now, not knowing what is going to happen next, but trusts in God, and has peace. God used the taste of my Starbucks, the guy in the Toyota Tacoma, and the Christmas tree laying in the back of his truck, and gave me clarity. God is able to use a song, a play date, having a glass of wine with a friend, a coffee date, a sunrise or sunset and touch our hearts. Times like these make me feel rich and thankful.